One Can Never Truly Start Anew

No matter what the situation is or the conditions are, it is impossible for one to truly start anew.

I'd love to say that this blog is going to be different than my last. "I'll keep up on this one more."

I'd also love to say that this break from school is going to be different than the other winter and summer breaks I've had. "I'm going to practice more during this break."

I'd even love to say that this romantic situation that I'm staging is going to be different than any of the others that I've been in. "But guys, this one is going to be different."

As much as we may hate or love it, humans do all things in their lives in a way that is based on their past experiences. I always hear, "It's just going to turn out like the last one did" or "You always say that this one's going to be different, but the same thing just ends up happening." Until someone makes a real commitment to forming a habit that is representative of exactly what that person wants, they will continue to have these failed ventures.

Despite differences in the guises which these new ventures are started under, they all come crashing back to the same center that is my life. Fact of the matter is, I'm going to continue to have failed blogs until I make a real commitment, not just a verbal commitment, to keeping it up. I'm also going to continue having breaks from school end in the same way until I make it a habit to practice 20 hours a week. I'm even going to continue down the same socially suicidal road of romantic relationships until I meet someone who has the same outlook on life and cares for our relationship exactly as much as I do.

Until then, however, expect this blog to have an expiration date, expect me to shirk my practicing duties, and expect to hear many, many more interesting stories of my romantic ventures.

Book being read currently: "Moving to Higher Ground", by Wynton Marsalis - I highly recommend this to musicians and especially to non-musicians. More on this later.

Peace out, peeps.